Category: thoughts
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Bittersweet memories
The lights are shining warmly on the two-metres Christmas three in the living room. To me it is taller than two metres, it is seven, it is ten, as I look at it from my metre and a bit. I am eight or nine, and I am about to start my favourite activity of the…
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You look thinner, you ok?
Last week I went to the dietologist. As always, we start the visit with general chatting, and then the moment comes, I step on the scale to see my progress. Although I lost weight, I convinced myself that I failed that week because it was not as much as a weight loss as in the…
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The diary of a student welfare intern – 2
Last few weeks were all about exams and invigilating students. I got chosen to invigilate a student who required a special chair and a special desk in order to sit comfortably and write their exam. There was, however, an inconvenience, as the special chair that had been ordered for them had not arrived yet. Instead,…
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The nightmare goes on
Tonight to go to a place in which we celebrate my best friend’s birthday I had to pass in front of the house in which the person who touched me when I was little lives. I talk about that trauma in this post. It happened in that house. I almost cried, but I didn’t. I…
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No milk for you
Today I woke up at my dad’s house and there wasn’t any milk to have breakfast with. It is a normal thing, as my dad is not what you can define a house person. He eats out with his friends lunch and dinner. If there’s no stuff for breakfast he skips it. I told him…
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Welcome home, fatty!
I arrived home and the first things I’ve heard are “You are fat” “You should cover yourself” “You believe in climate change? You are stupid! These theories are like the Mayan theories!” “You want to get married in the townhall and adopt a kid? You are such a delusion!” “I know you are studying a…
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Happy birthday, fatty!
On 26th of June it was my birthday. It has been such a wonderful day, I spent it with my boyfriend who made me feel loved. I received a call from home once I sent my parents the picture above. It was my mum. “Happy birthday! Hope you are having fun! Anyway, you should lose…
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I was asked how I am always happy
The other day my housemate asked me how I manage to be always happy. I was about to say “well you don’t know me”. Which is what I would usually say when someone commented on my happiness. But… I realised my housemate in fact has seen me only after my depression recovery. And that is…
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Everything is bleak
It has been a while since I last wrote on here. Thing is, I am lacking of motivation and I cannot find the words to write anything interesting. My life at the moment is great, and I guess that for someone who is used to problems this might result boring. I am not saying I…
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Home weird home
I am currently at home in Italy, which is where I come from. And I could not feel furthest from home. My dad saw me and understood there’s something off with me. He asked what is wrong. How can I explain that everything here feels foreign? It is like I moved on and everything else…
Through anxiety and beyond 