Category: relationships
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Wanting to call home
The other day I picked up the phone to call my mum, like thousands of times before, but my feeling was different. I wanted to call her. In the past I mostly called her because she was pressing me to do so, tapping into my sense of guilty. “You never call”, “when we call you […]
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Grandma died
Grandma died peacefully during her sleep. I am going to her funeral today. My mum said she doesn’t have any more reason to live. I pointed out I’m here. She said I am abroad so it does not count. I felt pain. She will never change. Image credits
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You are too fat to talk about anything else
My dad welcomed me in Italy with “Are you pregnant?” Not even hi before. My mum said that it’s normal that other girls were jealous of me when I was younger, as I was skinny. My dad looked at me and said “no” My dad told me he wants a detailed plan for me to […]
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No milk for you
Today I woke up at my dad’s house and there wasn’t any milk to have breakfast with. It is a normal thing, as my dad is not what you can define a house person. He eats out with his friends lunch and dinner. If there’s no stuff for breakfast he skips it. I told him […]
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Welcome home, fatty!
I arrived home and the first things I’ve heard are “You are fat” “You should cover yourself” “You believe in climate change? You are stupid! These theories are like the Mayan theories!” “You want to get married in the townhall and adopt a kid? You are such a delusion!” “I know you are studying a […]
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Happy birthday, fatty!
On 26th of June it was my birthday. It has been such a wonderful day, I spent it with my boyfriend who made me feel loved. I received a call from home once I sent my parents the picture above. It was my mum. “Happy birthday! Hope you are having fun! Anyway, you should lose […]
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Friends
Guest post by Ashley Peterson It’s when the going gets tough that you find out who your real friends are. I had one of those times recently. I have major depressive disorder, and my mental health had been tanking in the first couple months of this year. While I’m very comfortable talking about the really […]
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Part of the family
My boyfriend’s family is that family you see in adverts. They all get along, even my boyfriend and his brother. There’s no shouting, no drama, no arguments. And if there I haven’t seen them and my boyfriend told me they get settled in a matter of minutes. My family is the opposite. My parents divorced […]
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Poetry Wednesday #7
I was loving you so hard I forgot the idea of a future, of something concrete to hold on. I got lost in you and nothing could take me back. All I needed was to love life, not to love you. I wrote this when I realised how much time I spend after someone who […]
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The importance of taking a break
This post is about how my dad got taken over by work and treated me and others very badly. It has been difficult for me to witness his changes of mood and to understand that I was not the cause and that I did not deserve his treatment. My dad has always shouted when angry. […]
Through anxiety and beyond 