Do we need to love ourselves before loving others?
I am sure everyone has heard this phrase before: “Love yourself first before loving others”. I, for a while, believed in this phrase too. Until reality hit me. I was convinced I could not love anyone due to my severe depression which led me to hate myself. Until… I did. Even with depression. As soon…
The lights are shining warmly on the two-metres Christmas three in the living room. To me it is taller than two metres, it is seven, it is ten, as I look at it from my metre and a bit. I am eight or nine, and I am about to start my favourite activity of the…
You look thinner, you ok?
Last week I went to the dietologist. As always, we start the visit with general chatting, and then the moment comes, I step on the scale to see my progress. Although I lost weight, I convinced myself that I failed that week because it was not as much as a weight loss as in the…
Wanting to call home
The other day I picked up the phone to call my mum, like thousands of times before, but my feeling was different. I wanted to call her. In the past I mostly called her because she was pressing me to do so, tapping into my sense of guilty. “You never call”, “when we call you…
Grandma died peacefully during her sleep. I am going to her funeral today. My mum said she doesn’t have any more reason to live. I pointed out I’m here. She said I am abroad so it does not count. I felt pain. She will never change. Image credits
You are too fat to talk about anything else
My dad welcomed me in Italy with “Are you pregnant?” Not even hi before. My mum said that it’s normal that other girls were jealous of me when I was younger, as I was skinny. My dad looked at me and said “no” My dad told me he wants a detailed plan for me to…
No milk for you
Today I woke up at my dad’s house and there wasn’t any milk to have breakfast with. It is a normal thing, as my dad is not what you can define a house person. He eats out with his friends lunch and dinner. If there’s no stuff for breakfast he skips it. I told him…
Welcome home, fatty!
I arrived home and the first things I’ve heard are “You are fat” “You should cover yourself” “You believe in climate change? You are stupid! These theories are like the Mayan theories!” “You want to get married in the townhall and adopt a kid? You are such a delusion!” “I know you are studying a…
Happy birthday, fatty!
On 26th of June it was my birthday. It has been such a wonderful day, I spent it with my boyfriend who made me feel loved. I received a call from home once I sent my parents the picture above. It was my mum. “Happy birthday! Hope you are having fun! Anyway, you should lose…
Guest post by Ashley Peterson It’s when the going gets tough that you find out who your real friends are. I had one of those times recently. I have major depressive disorder, and my mental health had been tanking in the first couple months of this year. While I’m very comfortable talking about the really…