The other day my housemate asked me how I manage to be always happy. I was about to say “well you don’t know me”. Which is what I would usually say when someone commented on my happiness.
But… I realised my housemate in fact has seen me only after my depression recovery. And that is why he saw me always happy.
The realisation struck me so fiercely I stayed silent for a good minute. Then I just said “yeah well everything is fine so why not?”
It is so weird to think that all the people I met in this new university never saw me depressed or sad. They don’t know. They just assume I have always been like this.
Honestly, who am I to say they are wrong? It is nice for once to not have to explain why I am always sad and tired.
I am the one in tje picture when I was deep in depression. I was weighting 94kg. I gained 20kg as a result of my depression. I hated myself.
Now I managed to lose all the kilos as my mental health started to get better. I feel lucky.