It has been a while since I last wrote on here. Thing is, I am lacking of motivation and I cannot find the words to write anything interesting. My life at the moment is great, and I guess that for someone who is used to problems this might result boring.
I am not saying I want problemes. I am saying that I want to be excited for what I have, but I am not. I just feel numb. This makes me extremely angry because I seem unable to be happy.
I want something to happen. I am working towards it, as in, I am writing my dissertation and applying to jobs, but nothing seems to satisfy me. I desperately want to go on writing my book, but it just seems bleak and not interesting.
I would like to find my passion and find something I love doing that makes me happy, but nowadays it seems that I can only do things to numb away my lack of motivation. I feel mediocre and I do not know what to do about it.